Wednesday, October 07, 2009!
HandWritten on; 7:04 PM
i suddenly think there are alot of weird people around in this world.. even though you may not know them, they may not be your friends.. but they are still THERE. and the whole gang of them probably hang out together and together, they think we are all weird! (okay this is written on the basis that I am not weird. hahaha) then cause the way you turn out is like highly dependent on your family background, i start to wonder if their families are weird too! like this is the way they brought them up. i wonder how their parents think. hmm. just like many other things in the world, its a vicious cycle. haha random.
elearning week's not bad! even though much discipline is needed to listen to webcast lectures. i enjoyed not going for lectures. but elearning wk gna end in two days. seriously hate projects, we have very few but i still hate them. especially when you're doing it with people you're not very familiar with,argh its such a chore. there was ppda lab test today which i thought was okay until people started comparing answers. and got chided by xxx prof which was super damn scary cause the way he talks is like ..dontknow how to describe la. damn scary i was almost traumatised. like if it happens one more time i think i wld have started to tear. HAHA. 19 year old already uni year 1, still cannot handle mere scoldings. lol. okay it wasnt that bad la. but omg, the feelings i get in uni are seriously reminding me of primary school. to a certain extent, this scares me. :x
i really wanna go back to those days when i can watch show after show after show without having to feel guilty or having the naggy feeling at the back of my head. anyway, i was seriously contemplating staying in PGP next year but home still feels great. seriously. especially today when i went to KR aft lab for fun then coming home.. omg i cant imagine going back to a home in school everyday. i probably can if i were in NTU, cause the halls there feels too much like chalet. haha. :) but it will probably do me alot of good cause whenever i go to sch from home its like i need to prepare myself everyday for school, mentally i mean. like all the meeting people and stuff. which scares me too. (this is what i meant by scary. cause i think the last time i felt like that was in p sch) scares me as in i would much rather stay at home. i think cause i feel stupid and i dont wanna see people. does this stem from a certain degree of inferiority??? i highly think so. but getting back to the pt, i dont feel that once im in school. so maybe it'll do me good. cause the preparing-to-meet-people part, is
extremely tiring.